1. I hate this

    I hate the tearstained pillow
    I hate the sleepless nights
    I hate the stress duing meals
    I hate the morning headaches
    I hate the constant counting
    I hate the constant watching
    I hate the doctors for not seeibg through me
    I hate the scale for making me heavy
    I hate the soft spots i’d never had
    I hate the ensure i have to drink.
    I hate recovery
    I hate it all.
    Everyday. Every hour. Its all i think about, and i hate how no one is ever there.

  2. Might just go back to not eating..that hurt alot less…

    how do some girls not get tummy fat from that though?! RAWR YOU GUYSSSS! all so perfect it kills:)

  3. Crying. I can’t fucking do this.

    I am sitting here with a bowl of tomato soup and grilled cheese. and i cant fucking do this. I cant just fucking eat this. i cant. i want to. i have to. and i cant. im such a fucking failure. normal people dont do this. im so fucking alone.

  4. Anonymous asked: you're eating too little calories so your body is storing the fat. Eat at least 1200 calories a day and exercise and the bulge of fat should go in no time!

    Thanks so much!
    I am a recoverying ednos girl though, so 1200 is soo hard for me:/ ill try though!

  5. New Life Style! warning:does NOT include Sugar:)

    So i want to lose stomach weight, but I have realized no matter how few calories i eat, it just matters how healthy the stuff is! SO, now, I am cutting out any unnecessary sugars and fats! So, BRING ON THE FRUIT& VEGGIES!! really excited to try this out, wish me luck:)

  6. HEY GUYS WHO ARE SMARTER THAN ME!! DOES ANYONE KNOW WHY:

    I suddenly got all this tummy fat? I haven’t maxed 900 calories in over 2 months but literally overnight I got this little bulge of fat, however my weight didn’t go up:/ Anyone know why?

  7. Intake:669 Exercise:129 Net:540.

    I dont even know what im doing anymore. I thought i was recovering… but i dont see how i am doing any better than before..

  8. Every time i close my eyes, i see myself eating something i said “no” to that day.

    Its gotten to the point where i can’t wait to fall asleep..

  9. Final intake:554

    I havnt been really “hungry” in so long:) i feel amazing and clean and just..pure:)

  10. going to try this new thing:Happiness.

    Cleaning up my “like” box, only things that make me genuinely happy can stay.